hmmmm..

as i was sitting there 2nite during my games of snooker i just thought back to something a brother had mentioned.. abt the time we spend away from God where it be tv/internet/snooker.

I realised that playing snooker could also be a great time to evangelise as well.. i realised that the same with being online and chatting to ppl also.. but then i thought wat abt the time wen im on the net just playing games or not chatting to ppl..

ive been challenged again to just hang out more with God.. speak to Him about my problems.. and at times through prayer ive seen results..coincedince? So the journey continues..

be patient

this week ive been playing so much PES..ive been really drained mentally.. on a gaming come down..so to speak..and at this moment while i type this my head is startin to hurt.. *oww* must be from all the gaming..

how long can i keep up with being patient.. i need to learn to rest in Him..

some good sleep will do me well..

off to the mechanic 2moro..

Wusses

copied from Will Woon's post on facebook

No doubt that Christian men are called to be leaders. But are they exercising their leadership or are they simply riding the wave and taking it easy?

Let me put it out there that our CCC men are generally taking it easy and in some situations cowardly and wussy in exercising their leadership. I must admit that I have been guilty of this.

Let me explain.What about the courage to take up ministry positions despite the busy-ness of work/life? How come the same few faces are often seen helping out? Why is CCC, or any church for that matter, struggling to get leaders to help out?

Where are the men in children's ministry?? Is it just a domain for the women or are men going to take up their role as leaders also in teaching??

These days children face having no meaningful Christian male leadership outside of their home. And even at home some may not even have good Christian role modelling from their father who might not be a strong Christian himself.

Are men actively encouraging our sisters to grow? As men, it's even more important that we lead by example by growing ourselves as well as encouraging our sisters to grow. How often have we men let our own Christian life slip and grow stagnant? And yet we're happy to go to church and serve in our ministries but we're struggling to open our bible. I'm guilty of that too.

What about men taking a lead in their relationships?? I don't mean having prayer and bible studies with their gf/wife ... although that's important. Are they even doing that?? What I mean is an active hand in taking a lead in resolving any relationship issues by asking a pastor or a Christian brother for help & counselling.

This is based on a pastor's observation that whenever he's approached about relationship problems, it's invariably the women coming to him and not the men. Does that mean the men see no problems while women do?? Or are they too wussy to seek help?

And what about the famous fragile egos of men? Are we so worried about being hurt and rejected that we prefer to play it safe and skirt around the issue when it comes to the person we are interested in? I'm not saying guys let's all go forth and express our intentions en masse to our Christian sisters. But are we so fragile that we can't handle setbacks or rejections??

These are but some topics for discussion. I invite you to discuss about the idea of a Christian men with Courage. Your discussions could lay the foundation for the upcoming Men's Dinner in Oct 3 on Men at War: (HOLY) COURAGE.

Q: Where do you think men are falling down on as Christian leaders?
Q: What's some things that would take courage for a Christian man to do?

I'll chip in:

* it takes courage to teach children
* it takes courage to do the unglamourous jobs such as cleaning, washing, packing up rubbish
* it takes courage to do housework as we hate doing them
* it takes courage to volunteer when no one's willing to do so
* it takes courage NOT to conform to the masses
* it takes courage to tell a manager that every [insert your night] is your bible study and you can't stay late to work
* it takes courage to go to housegroup despite ...
* it takes courage to not be late for church service Feel free to discuss

its all changed..

i just noticed jack was online..it was around 1am and i asked if he was going out.. nothing was planned and i remember it was still "friday" and figured everytime he came we made the effort to go clubbing which he was up for as well. So we set off..

i used to get real paranoid getting into clubs.. as i remember waiting line when Yakooza was there.. waiting for an hr in line to in the end being rejected since it was so full..i got there late which didnt help either at the time.

we got in the club around 1:45am.. while paying to get in i was tryin to figure out wat was being played, it wasnt even loud.. i think it was House. yes it was.. The inside was much more colourful and less crowded.. and the DJ booth at the 'back'. Long gone are the days when i first when in 2004.. the place used to be pumping while ud wait in line, the lines were long..going to IMAX..ud feel the dark vibe while going through the corridor..the raw basslines..the essenece of the old Voodoo floor.

I checked the first floor and they had blocked off a whole area.. first it was the 1st stage toilets and now this. I remember in place of this was a large seating area.. ppl in 'never never land'..and an exit for the smokers. Off in the corner in that same area in 2004 there'd be a masseuse who'd had setup their service..great i suspected when you were off with the fairies. And even one time there were these H20 booths where ud inhale 'flavoured' air.. (never really understood what was so great about it..never was a 'sniffer').

Those were the days wen u had 'stompers'..the ones with the scissor dance. You had the glowstringers.. glowsticks on strings..doing all their wonderful tricks. I remember this one time this random did his thing in front of us..it was such an amazing site.. i was so gone.

We left at 4:30..havning only stayed just over 2hrs.. i enjoyed the electro the best.. much easier to shuffle to..looking at the crowd now it seemed there was a new flock of audience.. but the punters were still the same.. ppl just enjoying the moment ..randoms talking to ya.

10:00pm following night.. man im so sleepy..

fotos from the mobile

whatever

last nite

greg - "look at you, you're wearing all trackie dacks!"
me - *pauses and thinks bitterly* "does it really matter.. ?"

i kept repeating myself.. and realised ive never been in such a place that has commented more about my clothing than [...]

i vented this on the spot.. expressions changed. Maybe they felt my bitterness..

today

i was feeling pretty crap this morning just reflecting, AGAIN.. i really gotta start reading again to get my mind off things. Just listening to music doesnt help..

and just then i thought about in the past few weeks that it seems ive picked up some attributes from some close friends.. i started to really question ppl further on their thoughts (and i really enjoy this vice versa as it really helps a lot to get to know how people think, rather than a 1 word answer).. as how friend A has done.. and ive started to have a real whinge on things that dont seem right and need changing.. coming from friend B..

i look forward to 2moro.. meet up with the SCAC's and meet up old workmates at Fuj..

/end rant

intolerance

i attended mens dinner 2nite with mixed feelings.. it was great to catch up some of the guys that i was closer to.. and thinking now feeling a bit cocky around some.. but 3points that were touched that guys struggle with were

• intolerance
• ignorance
• self pride

intolerance really hit me in the face. I reflected on how ive been intolerant towards people (CCC) and was reminded how ive overlooked my own intolerance with my sinful nature, especially at home. Tonight was a great wake up call.. thanks God