already worried

i really look forward to next years HG. Though one thing is for sure that im gonna be scared.. scared that i will face the same struggle as to what ive already gone through this year..am i doubting that God won't take care of me and protect me from this? i really dont know... and it just only hit me 2nite after HG..

Not a child anymore

something i read on the train on the way home really stood out to me. It's something that has been on my mind after a discussion on sunday. Something i need to reflect upon and to really think hard about. But here's the verse..

When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 1 Corinthians 13:11

Blind faith

This tuesday i had gone to the RSL and played my games of snooker. Ive got no love for this game that i once had. Its just that snooker isn't a priority for me anymore and that the tip of the cue had fallen off the previous week and i havn't bothered to re-tip it.

And i was having a discussion with one of the guys and he was telling me about his priorities in life putting family first. I thought of this and didn't feel the same as him, rather just saying id put family second. Then you may ask what do i put first in my life then? I'll let you decide at the end of all this.

So it came to a discussion of beliefs. He mentioned he believed in Jesus as a man but didn't believe in the reincarnation. I questioned him how much of Jesus did he believe in the sense of the things he did and say. I told him what i believed in but in the end he believed that it was all blind faith.

To me blind faith simply = things you go off by something without substance/proof/truth. Say in this snooker environment, you have a professional that you've seen with your own eyes that scores at least 60 in every game he has played in. You then have faith in this guy with the way he has performed and believe that he'll pull off another 60 in the coming game. So is this still blind faith? You've seen him pull it off in every game in the past..

You tell me.

But say i told you about my life experiences with God, that my faith has been built with my experiences hanging out with Him. Reading what the bible has told me about my self and others, God answering my prayers esp during my darkest days, seeing people changed in the Bible and also the same way in real life. Is that still blind faith? I've seen things that have backed up all that I've known of God.

You tell me.

YEAH

2 sundays ago i came out on a high. I can say without a doubt that this year has been the best year by far. So many blessings..its been awesome..and the least i can do is to live out my life the way He wants me to do in thanks. Tis such an awesome feeling...

evening come down

i dont know what it is but its 9:52 and around this time normally theres this come down. i think its common with everyone. Just feeling negative and down. I notice i get this sometime too at mando after dinner. I think its just the tiredness of getting through a long day.

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there's something i love about humans ..its when they're encouraging. Encouraging in a good way. Ones that are selfless. Ones that are very welcoming to others, ones that care, ones that share, ones that follow up..and the list goes on.

ive wiped out pretty much all of my illegal music on my computer and it feels so good that i had to blog it. I'd encourage you as well if you feel the same way :)

Stained Glass Masquerade

I really like these lyrics..

But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be

Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay

Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade

fantsy pants

i just realised that ive got a lot of support lately from God and my sisters in christ, more than my brothers. It has been more worrying in recent times but its getting there. It seems i chat more to my sisters than my brothers. Suprising? Maybe not since i drove home a car full of sisters on a sunday nite..

Im full of joy for what God has done for me. Filling me with the Holy Spirit. Learning from His Word.

challenge: Get to know a brother.

just watch

migraines

oh i dread thee!

i started getting them early this year..and i got one this morning while at work..

they're terrible and unstoppable.

its time like this that i think im getting old. funny that. to me its like..

physical problems with the body = aging

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