HELLO 2010

WOW!!

so I haven't blogged for ages... and I may actually do so since I feel I have so much free time these days...

im thinking of posting the usual randomness... some football boot reviews... and everyday stuff..

have you been brainwashed?

We are used to live with the value of the world, and most of us are lack of brave in living like our true self, including myself. I am Sammi Cheng, an singer and actor, now at 35 years old. I have some achievement in life, but I have never lived like my true self. I am used to live inside the value of others. I used to believe that, the higher was my achievement, the higher would be the value of my life. Finally, I had achieved status and treasury that others were always looking forward to, howover, I am so shocked that I felt so empty in my heart. I have tried to gain even more achievements to fulfill this empty heart, but it just made me felt more worries and frightens towards myself, without fulfilling anything.

At the end, I chose to stop this never ended hunting game, left behind my career which have been developed for over 10 years, I suddenly decided to put aside my achievement and see what's still left in my life.



God spent around 1000 days in helping me think about my life in the past. I see the limited value behind money and achievement, they can help to make my live better, but not fulfilling the value my "LIFE".

"LIFE" should have much higher values, through god's wordings, I found the right direction and position towards the value in my life.

"God sent us to earth, is to serve others, not being served"
I have already known a very important responsibility in my future days. Although I don't know what kind of script had god written for me, but I know he will guide me in every steps and footprint whenever I step forward in my life.

Money must not be able to buy such kind of peace in my heart.

Looking backward to the 1000 days, god have promised and exile me, so as to let me find back my own real heart. My heart is now together with god. I didn't feel worry, I didn't feel nervous, I have to life in my true self

To live a higher value of life, don't twist yourself to live in the value of the world. This is the promise I made with god.

Sammi Cheng - HK female pop singer

how i've been

i havnt blogged in a while now. seems like the whole blog thing ive simmered down. life has been great and is great! lets track back..

3 words for Feb "Rest in Him". Things havnt been better since that. Quiet times have just been so comforting and natural. Sharing all things to Him...

tis a great season. Hunger. Fullness in Spirit. Wisdom, discernment.

I need to be patient.

thoughts

ive been reminded that sometimes the things we hear .. little does it show in our actions.. often it can be shown in our comfort zones. Ive been reminded to break out from the box.. get others involved so they dont feel outside but rather feel part of that family that we should all be.

Ive been reminded that when an outsider joins a group they can feel heavily unwelcomed when the ones inside the group just socalise among themselves. This can be a real guttering feeling for some.

Let's ask that God's love will be an explosion in our lives, an overpouring of grace and compassion. The good stuff that makes us move.. in ways that we normally never have.

Let's think about and put it into action rather than JUST mere words, preaching to people.

the way i are

I AM

i recently felt pretty down for not getting this position at work. I then listened to this song that made me feel extremely humbled before God. But it was so comforting as well. At church camp i was greatly humbled by the song, amazing grace. For the first moments in my life ive been greatly humbled by God. For a while, i was missing this feeling. Maybe i forget about my sinful nature and recognise in how God sees me now. Anyways. Here are the lyrics that really comforted me after i had not recieved the position i was after.

I am the maker of the Heavens
I am the bright and morning star
I am the breath of all Creation
Who always was
And is to come

I am the One who walked on water
I am the One who calmed the seas
I am the miracles and wonders
So come and see
And follow me
You will know

Chorus:
I am the fount of living water
The risen Son of man
The healer of the broken
And when you cry
I am your savior and redeemer
Who bore the sins of man
The author and perfecter
Beginning and the end
I am

I am the spirit deep inside you
I am the word upon your heart
I am the One who even knew you
Before your birth
Before you were

Chorus:

Before the Earth (I am)
The universe (I am)
In every heart (I am)
Oh, where you are (I am)
The Lord of love (I am)
The King of Kings (I am)
The Holy lamb (I am)
Above all things

Chorus:

Yes, I am almighty God your father
The risen son of man
The healer of the broken
And when you cry
I am your savior and redeemer
Who bore the sins of man
The author and perfecter
Beginning and the end
I am

migraines part 2

if ive never told you about my migraines ill tell you now. I started getting them in early 2007 i think or late 2006. It was during a night shift and my left eye started becoming blurry. I was a bit freaked out and was thinking, "oh no im going to have to wear glasses!" The thoughts of being like all the other asians out there wearing glasses made me feel a bit uneasy (i chuckle in my head thinking that).

Its a terrible feeling to go through migraines. My left eye gets a blurry vision, lasts for about 30mins-1hr. That will go away and the right side of my head will just hurt.. it will be a nausea type feeling, wanting to throw up.

After my first time getting it i would get migraines on average once a month. I would battle through it, having to sleep it off. At times forcing myself to throw up to relieve the pain. It was interesting to hear there was a person that would have some illness, during a mission they had went to in Africa they would not have this illness, once back home they would get it again. Interesting...

I went to mission for the first time this year and towards the lead up and after i was on a streak of about 3 months without a migraine. I came back to work, 3 weeks later i got 2 migraines in 2 weeks! 2nd time i got it, i asked God to heal me. Nothing happened.

Today i woke up and had a blurry left eye again. I was on the train still with a blurry left eye.

Father, how awesome you are. I just come here again today and ask that you Will heal me from these migraines. I feel i'm being a burdern to my workmates that i need to sleept it off in the sick bay. Im confident even if im not healed now my migraines will go away soon

I finished my prayer and not long my blurry left eye went away. I have never recovered from a buildup of a migraine. Medicine has never helped. That's my story for today.