Are you happy?

i walk into another night shift.. another 12hr night shift.. my manager greeted me..in his brit-esh accent.. and it then went on along the lines like

manager - "lawrence, are you happy?"

i thought about it for a second...

me - "im happy if you're happy"...

it was a verse that was familiar..that's right..it was something he used on me before.. the truth is..is that when i said it i didnt really mean it.. it must be like when ppl just say, "pretty good" and leave it at that.. im like that as well on the telephone.. i wont lie to ppl but just say "yea..im ok".

My thoughts were around this for a while.. Was i happy then? At the time i thought being happy was a temporary thing that lasted for a day or maybe less..maybe from having a good day or scoring a new job.

I was asked again tonight.. "are you happy?"

i thought about it for a lot longer now. I reflected in the past 2 weeks about ppl asking how i've been. I was telling people that was I doing 'pretty good'. Now i say..'awesome!' At the time of 'pretty good', i regarded as 'awesome' as something spectacular..full of fireworks celebration (figuratively speaking) but now im thinking.. it doesnt have to be in that sense!

i looked back this year and the end of it and realised what has made and will make it so 'awesome'

• trip to HK/china and being able to see my relatives. Also being greatly challenged after reading somebody's blog
• Getting to know some great people
• Getting a new job, one that isnt rotating roster but a standard roster
• looking forward to my baptism and hoping my non christian friends/parents can come and watch
• trip to spending more time with people

So the answer to that question.. im extremely happy..why? I'm happy that i will be doing my last shift at FUJITSU tomorrow and that being my last, I kno ill be able to spend more time with friends and family..ill be able to get out and do things which i havnt been able to for the past year.. and more importantly i think ill be able to grow more in HIM!

AMEN <3