as of late ive been feeling pretty idle.. what do i mean by that? the state of just drifting through the day feeling empty in the head..non responsive.. lacking emotion. Maybe its the shift work thats doing this to me.. it bothers me a bit.. i think back and feel rude being like this to people.. not responding or showing emotion.. being just 'idle' and blank..
.. i observed the way they carried themselves after their time consuming it.. they seemed anti-social and unwilling to take part in activities. I then later thought i had reached this state as well but i just think it was coincidence. Maybe i was just jumping to conclusions too quickly. I didnt enjoy activities as much as compared to the the darkened rooms, heavy synths and head banging basslines. Maybe it was just a comedown from this crazy ride i was going through.
A couple of years have passed. Im happy ive gotten off the crazy ride. I dreaded the environment, i was disgusted the way i carried myself in those environments and among THOSE people. The long amount of time i spent with her. It makes me sick just thinking about it now. But im so happy God was always there by my side right from the beginning. I dogged him but out of his grace and love he still picked me up in those rough moments.
Im not a big fan of cold weather.. i look forward to spring..the warm weather i really enjoy basking in. I want to go to the beach..i wanna feel that warmth again everyday..only a few months to get through.. i need some sleep..3hrs of sleep after a night shift is a joke.
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i reckon eh!? darn portuguese ..how did they find my blogspot! ARHHHH!
hellooo!! wow, your blog has reached international status, hasn't it? popular!! hehe j/k... how have you been? it was a nice surprise to see your message! yes i tweaked the template a little to personalise it but the standard formatting was off blogskins :)
loopholes in heroes... this thing about parallel universes - present and future occuring simultaneously - that would mean you can change the present but in the parallel universe say 1 hour in your future, events don't change!! i.e. NY still blows up. okay i'm not sure if that made any sense at all... but i think you should be able to figure out what i mean!
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